Love Your Friends

 The last post I published was about taking photos with your friends. It's a subject that I feel very strongly about because memories need to be made and cherished by all.

    In July 2018, my friend passed away. At the time, I hadn't experienced anything like it before. My nan had passed away a few years before but she wasn't well and it had to be expected. When you loose friends at a young age, it's difficult to know how to feel. She was only 15 at the time. All the photos I have of us are stuck up around my room at uni so I can remember her and smile when one of the pictures catches my eye. The friendship group I had at the time was close up until that point. We all looked after each other and would express our love for each frequently. Even years later, I still can hear her saying 'I love you man' over and over in my head. It really breaks my heart that she isn't here anymore. All we can do now is live our lives to the fullest and pack as much in as possible. If I could go back to being 15/16, I'd take so many more photographs, do so many more things and go out with my friends as much as I could. When you loose someone it can feel like the end of the world. Everything around you is falling apart and crashing to the ground. All I can promise to anyone reading this is that, it gets easiest to cope with but you'll never forget the person they were.

    Later that same year around mid December, my close friend from school passed away. Natasha and I had our ups and downs throughout our time at school but we always made our way back to each other in the end. She used to tell me that I'd always be emo to her and that I'm 'still emo' when I'd angry say that I was a goth now. She was incredibly supportive when Mollie passed and would send me regular messages to check up on me when I moved away from my hometown. I didn't get to say goodbye to Tash, which is probably one of the most upsetting things when your friends pass away at such a young age. It's a very abrupt end to not a very long life. You just hope that they enjoyed themselves while they were here. The last time I saw Tash was a few months before and gave her a big hug goodbye since I was moving away and didn't know when I'd see her again. I didn't end up getting to meet up with her one last time.

    This post won't drag on too much now. I just want to say please love your friends and family, life is so unpredictable and you never know what's going to happen.